Jenny @ Yam Blog - 天空部落

I have arrived in Bejing last Thursday and have been trying to find a way to solve the website blocking problem here. However, I still can't access my Blogger blog from Beijing. Therefore, I've decided to have another site at http://blog.yam.com/jennyyang1218 so that I can still keep updating my blog and lifes in Beijing. Would try to update both at the same time if I find my way to manage them!

Sometimes, my blogger is working also. So would really try to write on whichever availabe first and update the other la!!

Happy Birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

It is あなた's Birthday and also my first time really cooking for him after almost one year. It should be quite suprising for those people who know and taste my dishes before that I can hold on to it for so long. Actually, I just do not have my kitchen and tools so that I can not do anything. Now I have a wonderful OPEN KITCHEN. Because of this, I bought 2 Great Berndes pans so that I can cook without worrying about the smoke that may go all over the place.

I am really excited about the new place in Beijing and this wonderful kitchen. I have started my "housewife" life since arriving and kind of enjoying it. However, I still need to get back to working life. Wish me good luck on those applications I have send out!!

前門大街

前門大街是直接接到天安門及紫禁城的一條大道，在網上搜尋資料的時候，也看到了這個有趣的北京順口溜 “東四西單鼓樓前，王府井前門大柵欄”，也可見前門在北京過去的重要地位，不單只是地理位置，前門也是許多北京百年老店的據點。但也因為商業發展重心的轉移，前門失去了過去的風采，也因此開始了這個重整計畫，打算重現前門清末民初的"京味兒"。週末因為Grace工作的New Balance - 新百伦在前門開了全球首家新概念體驗店，我跟あなた決定一起去前門瞧瞧也順便捧捧場。

我們一走靠近前門大街的大牌舫就看到New Balance活動的宣傳，在這個"古色古香"的地方進駐了許多歐美的風行品牌，從Hagen Daze到ZARA都讓我驚訝不已，老實說，我還只在中國看過Hagen Daze的電視廣告，而且還是很localized的。除此之外，就是這些北京有名的百年老店像是全聚德的總店，門外排隊的人潮行我們兩為之怯步，其實他旁邊還有個較高級的店面提供一人$399的套餐，也因為相對高價所以沒那麼多人，但我真的不覺得需要吃到$399的烤鴨。

所以繼續走著走著看到"都一處"，之前常在台北仁愛路四段看到"北平都一處"也聽到不少好評，我們倆就決定進去給他光顧一下。"都一處"是因為乾隆皇帝當年微服出巡時在年三十晚上光顧，前門其他店家都已打烊，便光顧這家小店，一問之下竟知小店沒店名，就隨口下了個"都一處"的名字，回去也叫人搬了個虎頭匾，這小店才慢慢發展了起來。我們進門一看菜單，聽說有名的是現做的燒賣，就決定試試他們的兩人套餐有小菜、炒時蔬、醬爆雞丁、炸丸子及豬肉燒賣。口味上還是北方既有的重鹹重口味，而現做的燒賣是最後上，老實說，那跟我們習慣的燒賣不太一樣，皮較厚而收口處也因沒有肉餡而顯的過乾，感覺上像是在吃包子，不過那醬爆雞丁卻是很不錯。

對"都一處"的結論是，對觀光客來說可能可以試試百年老店的特色，不過長駐的話可能就不在再次拜訪的名單上了。

8th Aug 2009

首先，父親節快樂!! 還有新加坡生日快樂!!

這個八月八號對我來說是一個很不一樣的日子，這是我三年前決定由新加坡回台灣之後與我父親一起慶祝的第三個父親節，這也是我成為新加坡公民後的第一個新加坡國慶日，更重要的是今天是我外婆骨灰罈進塔的日子。

一直沒有提到這件事，因為這樣脆弱的情緒是我最不善於處理及面對的，從六月中外婆往生之後，我們的生活已漸漸回復正常，我也以為我已經收拾好我的心情繼續走下去。但今天下午一到禪寺拿起香祭拜外婆，眼淚及傷心的感覺立刻襲捲我，再上樓去請外婆住進"新家"，原本在眼框裡打轉的眼淚立刻掉了下來。這是我第一次真正面對也經歷失去親人的狀況，而外婆又是在祖父母中跟我最親近的，她往生的當晚其實我人在印尼，隔天得到消息，只能說是飛奔回台。

在あなた今年五月確定過去北京之後，我原本也打算八月後也一起過去，但因為外婆的事情及對媽媽的衝擊，讓我開始思考如何能夠兼顧あなた與父母親的生活模式。開始工作的話，我應該不太有可能有這樣的彈性可以經常往返，但現階段的我又還沒有清楚的方向可以開始自己的小生意可以讓我擁有時間及地點上的彈性，不過我相信我能夠找到方法去創造這個我想到的新生活模式。只願外婆在天堂每天快快樂樂也保佑爸媽身體健康，讓我無後顧之憂地開始繼續努力!

My 3 Little Babes

These are the pictures of our lovely 3 little babes. By now, I have 5 lovely nephews and niece. After the eldest 2 boys we welcomed 4 years ago. Now we have 3 more new members these 2 years. Other than my Ron Ron babe, we finally welcomed our first GIRL babe mid last year. Early this month, we have another new member joined our big family.

It's really interesting to have these kids around so that we can enjoy and witness the wonderful process of their growing-up. It's so amazing that they were just a LITTLE BABE about my arm tall but now they all grow up.

I have promised myself not to become over-aged pregnant woman and I hope to have 2 babes. That means I have 4 more years to deliver them. I really felt time is flying after welcoming more and more babes from my family and friends. I got to catch up then!!

Diving Again After 4 Years!!

My last dive was in May 2005 which was 4 years ago. I did not have the opportunity to go during my last year in Singapore and not to mention the recent 2 years back in Taipei. Therefore, at the beginning of my holiday, I've listed down all the things that I want to do during this break and "DIVING" is definitely one of them.

For my previous dives, I normally went with my instructor, Ying Kai, as I can rent all the equipments from him so that I don't need to buy any. Besides, there is certain trust level that I know I would be very safe while going with him. (For those interested in taking up Diving Courses, you may check out his website "the submersibles".)

Therefore when I started my holiday, I wrote to Ying Kai to ask for his diving trip schedules and finally I manage to make it for this wonderful Manado trip. Manado is located at the central of Indonesia Sulawesi island. It is a pretty famous diving spots because of its unique marine life and creatures. Other than those lovely fishes and creatures, we met those cute Dolphins also. It's really fund to have them chasing our boat and playing with us. It was an wonderful trip to get back to underwater world again to experience the beauty and peace of this amazing world.

I hope that I can go for diving at least once a year and let's go Green Island in Taiwan next year then!

蘇老師瑜珈斷食營 - 馬來西亞篇

這是我第四次參加蘇老師的瑜珈斷食營，一開始主要是因為需要紓解工作壓力及改善應該工作帶來不良生活習慣的問題，包括我長時間三餐不定時再加上吃的又急又快所造成的腸胃問題，每次回來總是覺得身體與精神都好非常多。基本上蘇老師提倡的瑜珈斷食是透過一段時間不進食來讓身體的精力專注在排毒功能上，至於詳細內容有興趣的可以參考"蘇老師瑜珈斷食營"。

我之前三次都是去老師在台南的中心，但這兩年來因為參加的人數太過踴躍，可能都需要提早三到四個月報名。我上次去的時候其實是今年的三月，但想趁我還再放假再去一次把身體作更好的調整，但從今年五月到九月都已經報名額滿，而我又剛好打算回新加坡一趟潛水去，就異想天開第問老師說有沒有可能去參加馬來西亞的梯次。應該也因為我這個異想天開的想法促成了幾位台灣學員也一同前往。

基本上課程的內容與在台灣是一樣的不同的是參與的大多是馬來西亞的學員，雖說我對馬來西亞還算熟悉，不過與這麼多馬來西亞學員一起渡過斷食營的七天倒還是頭一遭。除此之外另一個特色應該是最後一天的"大餐"吧!! 因為這次是由馬來西亞當地的老師主廚，第一次嘗到重口味的東南亞料理也可以走健康路線，應該是我其中一個大收穫吧!!

容容寶貝 - 16 months

Our dearest precious at home is my dearest nephew.  My mom has been helping take care of him for my sister since he was born and now he is 16 months old already.  It's so amazing to see a little baby growing up like this.  He now can walk, run and talk in a very cute way.  I finally understand why people always said that children between 1 to 3 years old are the cutest.  Yes, he is really very cute!!  I'm going to miss him a lot if not staying at Taipei that often.  :Q

天使野餐 de Angelos

This is a great place that I discovered lately. I have been there 3 times in the past 3 weeks. The first time we were there for dinner. We ordered a twin-sharing set which was fantastic with good taste, settings and good price performance as the set includes appetizer, soup, salad, 2 main course, spaghetti, chocolate pot and drinks. Surprisingly, it costs only NT$999. The 2nd I was there for my AIESEC MC team mate gathering as Jessica and Frank happened to be back for holiday at the same time. I ordered their brunch and this afternoon I had a Vegetable Set.

I like this place because they are offering healthy, delicious and beautiful food. They emphasized on low-salt, low-oil and organic. Other than that, I like the quiet environment in the afternoon with the nice music. It's just like a cozy home that I would like to have in the near future. However, sometimes it would be a bit noisy during lunch and dinner because there are always full-house during the peak hours. Even though, I would still recommend you to try their stuff. Really nice and it's all home-make or hand-make. Check it out then!!

天使野餐 de Angelos

四維路208巷10號, Taipei (just opposite 遠企)

Tokyo Trip

It seems that I have been having my long holiday since beginning of the year.  It is 100% true but guess I'm just used to have a packed schedule with all the different kinds of activities. So I have to say that I'm quite busy and therefore, I have not been writing much even though I'm actually on holiday! Sorry! :Q

Therefore, this one has been delayed for too long as I have returned from Tokyo for more than one month.  I decided to keep up with my work on the blog since I have confirmed most of the things other than planning my new life in Beijing.  

I was in Tokyo for 8 days this early April because of Sandy's wedding.  Because it's such a unique trip to gather all the friends from different parts of the world,  Sandy arranged 2 trips for us to enjoy the unique culture and beauty of Japan.  

Before the wedding, we went to Izu, a famous peninsula near Tokyo for its Hot Spring and Sakura.  I have been wondering why Jun choose April to be their wedding in Tokyo since the Taiwan one was held last Sep.  Right after I arrived at Tokyo, I realized it's the best weather and the most beautiful season in Japan because of SAKURA. 

 

I like Izu a lot as it's not so much a tourist place to me.  We took high speed train to Izu and then transfered to the local train.  That's the first time I really got in touch with the local local Japanese and experienced the great food, scenarios and beauty of Japan.  After the wedding, we went to Nikko, also another famous place in Japan because there are famous temples for two of the great leaders in Japan's history.  I can't really use words to describe all the nice parts I have experienced there but I believe you can see from my photos there (Jenny's Tokyo+Izu+Nikko Photo Set). 

The most important event of this trip is of course Sandy's wedding.  I'm really happy to see Sandy again in Tokyo because I can tell she really lives happily with the newly-wed husband.  Guess that's what most of the girls want; find a partner who can really share their lives, up and down and most importantly to take care of each other.

They have a small but very decent wedding, very cozy and warm to me.  It's held in a garden of a hotel in Japan.  After participating in more and more of my girlfriends' weddings, I started to think how I want to hold mine.  I do have some idea and hopefully, I would start this project soon.  : )

Fishmart 漁園海鮮

Fishmart - 漁園海鮮

去年決定辭職的時候，就想要趁這個機會嘗試不同的工作模式。主因是因為想要有自己可以自主的時間及做自己想做的事情，原本的想法是作有關於貿易的部分，畢竟我過去幾年的經驗都在行銷及進出口的部分。但做這樣的生意最重要的就是產品，要有unique的產品才能在這個競爭的市場中闖出一片天。

當時剛好有機會接觸到這個海鮮相關的公司，老實說，我對這個產品並沒有特別的感覺。但畢竟從小在海邊長大以及家族對水產事業的接觸，讓我覺得這可能也是個我嘗試新的事業模式的好機會。所以我從二月底開始這個網站的project，經過一開始概念的formulation，內容的準備到實際的上線及產品上架。其實execution對我來說，從來不是個問題，但之前都有同事或是agent作美工的動作，所以這次我倒是花了些時間去熟悉Photoshop及Dreaweaver。

海鮮因為其營養價值，一直被視為高級食材。漁園海鮮就是希望把健康及高品質的水產品推廣給在台灣的消費者，過去台灣好的海鮮大多是出口，留在台灣的大多是被B級的產品。再加上水產品其實是很複雜的食材，因為其高蛋白質的特性以及可能在產地或加工過程中被污染的可能性，要找到健康、衛生、無污染、無化學添加物的水產品，相對來講比較困難。所以魚園海鮮就在這樣的市場及其過去養殖、批發的經驗下，投入這個市場。如果大家對吃海鮮有興趣更對健康海鮮有需求，或許你可以考慮魚園海鮮的產品。

漁園海鮮將在5月16號網站正式開幕及五週年慶的活動，漁園海鮮系列產品全面九折，單筆消費滿兩千即可獲得價值NT$230的產品(低鹽鮭魚片or干貝花枝丸)!  

歡迎光臨!!  漁園海鮮，健康領先!!

Lifestyle

I have started my new lifestyle from the beginning of this year.  I have a whole list of things to do that I can't make it with the busy working life.  I traveled quite a bit to Singapore, Hong Kong, Macau, Japan and Taichung.  Next month, I should have a trip back to Singapore, Malaysia and "DIVING" in Manado, Indonesia.  I have taken quite a number of different courses including Japanese, Sketching, Bakery, Massage and my Makeup course would start soon in mid June.  On top of this, I'm involved in setting up the online shopping site for my cousin's seafood retail business.  To summarize my past 5 months of new life, I'm very happy, satisfied and feeling fulfilled.  Those are things I've been missing for long time.  

A lot of friends would ask why I make this decision as it really take some big courage to do different things from what most of the people are doing.  However, I'm really glad that I made this decision so that I can at least have a good time which I may not have the opportunity if I'm getting into a family and with kids.  

I'm planning to conitnue this until last the last quarter of this year and would start new one at another location!!

New Toy - Sony Cyber-Shot T90

I just bought the new Sony Cyber-shot T90 as my current one is about 5 years old and the battery can't really survive a few shoots already.  I have been surveying and trying to find one with good performance, features and also price.  I was thinking of T77 but by the time I decided, they have end that product line.  

Therefore, I decided to go for the next generation, T90.  There are 5 colors and I went for the Brown color one as that looks more elegent and sophisticated than the others to me.  The most interesting and useful function to me is the "Smile Detecting" so that I can take my own pictures nicely.

Just share some nice one with you and I would be taking more during my trip to Japan next week!

Macau & HK 5 Days Trip

I was on 30 days Landing Visa into Taiwan and that's to say I have to leave every 30 days.  So I have planned a few trips for this purpose.  The first one is Macau and HK.  I actually was planning for Angkor Wat but the direct flight schedule can not fit into our plan.  Therefore, we switch to Macau and HK as he needs to visit HK to arrange some banking stuff.  

We spend the first 2 days in Macau as I want to see Cirque Du Soleil's performance - ZAiA.  They actually have it now in Taiwan but the ticket is quite expensive and are almost sold out already. Because of this, we stayed at Venetian.  The room is really quite nice but the whole hotel/resort is too big and the managment isn't good enough to handle the huge demand.  Besies, there are a lot of PRC visitors and that makes that place like a market instead of a 5 star hotel.

Then we visited Macau Island itself to see the historical site Ruins of St. Paul's.  It's really a tourist site as there are tons of people around.  To be frank, I think Macau is really for Casino.  I might not have 2nd trip there soon unless there are some special arrangment. 

One of the important missions this trip is to get my Visitor Visa so that I don't have to be bond by the 30 days.  It's the same place that I got my working visa last time and therefore it's not easy for me.  Besides, we also spend 3 days on Hong Kong Island last trip and I've got to know the place quite well.  I requsted for Multiple Entry and valid for180 days.  Surprisingly, it's free of charge and they granted me 1 year.  It's actually 60 days for every entry but I can actually extend twice which makes up of 180 days.  Taiwan government is really friendly for people like us. : )

After that, I finaly got the chance to visit Pininsula Hotel for their famous Afternoon Tea. The portion is really for 2 people though I ordered the one for One person.  I just want to try the Traditional English Afternoon Tea.  I actually arrived about 30 minutes earlier and just sit down.  If not, I got to queue up for about 20 minutes as there are people starting to line up around 1:45pm.  The food isn't so fantastic and it's quite noisy because of the crowd.  However, it's a good expenrience to really try something which is recommended for long. 

The other important mission is to meet up with all my OLD Friends.  I haven't met up with Ceci after I left Singapore 2 years ago.  We had spend a good time together as Housemates.  We are just like family especially when we both are alone overseas.  It's realy great to know that she is going well also and really great to meet up with my whole gang in Hong Kong.  Thank you my Sis!!

我是愛過你的

早知道打開那塵封的回憶會有多痛
但仍不由自主
因為那花了我長長一段時間築起的牆
竟是只要有一絲絲裂縫就瀕臨潰堤的邊緣
那些心碎了卻只能自己默默拾起再試著拼湊的時刻
那些淚留滿面卻只能自己拭淚的孤單
那些在期待與失望間掙扎卻不捨離開的執著
在多年以後竟讓我一回想起仍不禁淚流心酸不已

雖不知現在多說何用
但我不想再犯過去那有關尊嚴的可笑錯誤
只想親口告訴你
我是愛過你的

P.S.至少我知道我曾深深地愛過也深深地痛過

這應該就不惘此生了

過去式的曖昧

今天在自由時報的兩性異言堂版面讀到了這篇文章，＜過去式的曖昧＞前男友

文／balloon

小葳與前男友分手後，斷斷續續見過幾次面，原因多是有事相求。但兩人之間夾了一層「感情過去式」的特殊關係，碰面時難免有些不自在。

記得有句話是這麼說的：「分手後還能當朋友的情侶，必定有一人還沉默地愛著對方。」

小葳迷惘了。她對前男友的確還存有與一般朋友不同的情愫，但她無法確定那是不是愛。

有陣子他們見面的次數實在過於頻繁，她和他一起吃飯、一起逛街，有種熟悉感漸漸蔓延開來，彷彿每踏出一步，曖昧的成分就濃郁一些。

前男友開始向小葳傾訴煩惱，有時說些令人容易胡思亂想的話，每每在小葳的心中激起不小的漣漪，當下的她雖然嘻嘻哈哈的塘塞過去，但她上揚的嘴角透露出一絲欣喜。縱使往後的一切都是未知，小葳還是享受著被在乎的感覺。和他在一起，總會湧起莫名的期待。

直到前男友失聯了，小葳的喜悅頓時化為虛無。之前那些一起出遊的日子像夢境般變得不真實，她開始質疑先前的熟稔其來何自。

再度和前男友聯繫上，已是好幾個月後的事了。他說他交了女朋友，很忙。

小葳就像被人從後腦勺狠狠地敲了一記，又被殘忍地推進深不見底的幽谷中，連吶喊都來不及。

無以名狀的羞困盤旋不去，小葳仔細思索與他的相遇，驚覺前男友似乎都是在單身的狀態時才與她聯絡。她終於明白，原來前男友只是想在空窗期時有人陪伴，才會說出那種曖昧不明的話。

小葳除了心寒，也懊惱自己的意亂情迷，甚至一廂情願的編織各種可能性；唯一值得慶幸的是，她不再感到迷惑，此刻，小葳終於明白這個愛搞曖昧的男人，將永遠是她的，前．男．友。

昨天我才意外地知道過去那段刻苦銘心的感情只是因為兩個人的預設立場及想法和溝通不良。整個過程我不停的笑也不停的流淚，怎麼會有這麼白痴的兩個人，明明心中掛念著對方，卻因為沒有勇氣以及一些令人發笑的誤解，讓我痛了那麼久。

回憶都是美好的，而他對我來講一直都像是個未盡之夢，我花了一段不短的時間埋藏那段感情，傷口雖復原了但那傷疤依舊是清晰可見。從昨天開始，我的心就好像被原子彈轟擊了，震盪不已。

但現在的我已不在過去的位置，再加上之前的相處及昨天溝通的過程讓我也更了解他的個性及犯的錯誤。恰好讀到這篇文章，讓我更回想起那曖昧過程及溝通不良中造成的痛。我們只輕輕地帶過我現在過的很好其他都是在談過去因為他好像也知道我的現況，只是我又好像讓自己陷入不知如何自處的狀況。

曾經一直告訴自己不要有期望因為隨之而來的一定是失望，但現在只想告訴自己不能沒有希望。

Ending and Starting

We need to end so as to have a start.  Therefore, I decided to end my current job so as to enter into another era.  I have been in this HR Consulting/Head Hunting line for about 2 year.  It's not really long but long enough for me to realize a solid working experience and foundation is needed to really perform and advise clients.  So I decided to move on either start up a small business by myself or enter into corporate in 5 or 6 months later if I do not manage to come out something solid.

Ideally, I would like to have a flexible lifestyle in terms of time management and traveling.  I believe once my boyfriend starts working, he would be much busier than I was and therefore I want to have a flexible lifestyle to suit his.  Besides, his location would definitely not be in Taiwan because of the scope.  I want to be where he is but I also want to spend time with my parents back here.  Therefore, I believe a small business of mine to have some income and also the flexibility for my love ones would be the most ideal for me.  My last day is 31st Dec 2008 and I would start the new chapter on the firsts day of a new year!! : )

Happy New Year to all of you and  a great start for everyone of us!!

The Women

We were thinking of watching movie 渺渺 tonight. When reaching the movie Miramar, they do not have that one and I just chose "The Women".

It's a movie all about WOMEN. There is no male in the movie other than the baby boy who was born in the end of the movie. So it might be cliche but it's talking about various roles women play in the contemporary society. To be very frank, I wasn't sure if we should go for this movie together because there are some sensitive topics that I yet to figure out how to discuss and share with him including marriage, divorce and relationship with kids & family. There are some questions in my mind, but I don't know if I really want to know what happened as I'm afraid I'm not ready for that yet.

For this movie, I think it's made up of different types of women and their various roles covering career-businesswomen, mother, daughter, wife, friends. Each one may have their own challenges or issues but we all need to decide the type of life we want and just go for it. These few roles are also what I have been thinking over and over.

1. Career-businesswomen: I have been regarded as Businesswomen as I have been very business or career-minded since AIESEC time to my previous job. To be frank, the reason why I chose to join the current company without searching for job at all is because I saw a role model that I wanted to be, a successful businesswomen taking charge of the company and also being a mother and wife. That's what I dreamed of since young.

However, it's different or I should say I have changed. I no longer saw that as a role model as I have not yet really seen a woman who can successfully play the role to be a successful businesswomen, a good wife and a good mother at the same time. We all have limited time, energy and efforts. Most of the women I have seen are juggling the few roles like glass balls on hand at the same time and most of them fail to hold them all successfully as at the end of the day, we all have 2 hands only.

I actually had the idea of having a flexible lifestyle to fit my ideal life for my own business/career (might be running the business together with my husband), for my husband and my kids. As of now, the idea comes stronger as I really like to spend more time with him and possibly the kids in the future.

Interestingly, my business leader gave me this book, 像我一樣勇敢, by Olga 吳美君. She shared the failure as she was fired on three jobs: General Manager of KFC Taiwan, Wife and Mother. After so many things, she learned to have a different life to play these few roles together with a different approach, priority and value. Just like what's described in the movie, when Mary launched her collection successfully in the end and the leading department store wanted to place big order, she wants to think over if she doesn't want to have such a big scope as she would lose the time and energy she's supposed to share with her daughter.

Guess by now, I'm quite clear about the type of life I want. I want to have a job or a business that I can demonstrate my capability and also contribute to the world but I also want to have the spare time and energy to be a good, understanding, supportive wife and mother. That's something I do not want to compromise and that's something I do not think it can be achieved in my current company and position. On top of the passion and interest issues I have, this is the biggest concern and challenge I have on this job.

2. Wife: In any failed marriage especially those because of affairs, people mostly would ask what they have done wrongly. To me, there are only 2 principle that can't be broken. First, no violence and second, no affairs. These two are something I can't compromise. My idea is if we still love each other, we treat the other with all our heart but if either one party does not love the other already, then just speak it out and we do not need to force the other party as the love is no longer exist and it's a torture for that party. So if I really encountered this, I would definitely feel betrayed but I would also walk out of that and stand up firmly to lead my own happy life. I had the experience to be confronted by a married man but I just felt very bad about that as I do not want 3rd party in my marriage and I don't want to be one to others, either.

3. Daughter: Mother is always the role model for the kids especially for the daughter as they are the closest connected 2 people in the world but there are still distance between them. The daughter want to be as good as the mother but they also saw part of their mother's life that they don't want. So there are at times conflicts in between. The daughter wants to seek approval and recognition from the mother as she may realized that they just have different value and priority in life. However, I believe they all love each other all hearted.

4. Mother: I have been thinking about kids and maybe it's because of my age and also my nephews. I want to have 2 kids as one alone is just too lonely. Besides, I would love to and need to spend time with them as I have been the "key kids(鑰鉂兒童) since young. I don't want my kids to have that unsecured feeling like me though I have fully understand why my mother needed to do this arrangement so many years later.

Therefore, I think I'm getting a clearer and clearer picture about my ideal lifestyle and how I want to lead my life. Passion, dream and belief are the fundamental of my life and happiness. Now it's just my courage to act on it.

Life

I started to have a different lifestyle lately because of my partner in life. Other than the regular dinner we have together for most of the days, we enjoy various activities including concerts, musics, arts and some outings. The very first place we went is the Palace Museum as I have be thinking of going but can't really find a good partner.

Last Sunday, we went for St. Petersburg Philharmonic Orchestra's Performance in Taipei. The first piece is Tchaikovsky Piano Concerto No. 1 and Denis Matsuev is really AMAZING!! I have not listened to performance like this for a long long time. They are really good as one of the top three orchestras in Europe.

Yesterday, we went for Sandy Lim's concert. I started to listen to her song since high school. She got a very touching voice and also the songs are just so classical for my precious memories. " 至少還有你" is my favorite song that I would sing every time in KTV.

曲︰DAVY CHAN 詞︰林夕 編︰劉志遠
我怕來不及　我要抱著你
直到感覺你的皺紋　有了歲月的痕跡
直到肯定你是真的
直到失去力氣
為了你　我願意

動也不能動　也要看著你
直到感覺你的髮線　有了白雪的痕跡
直到視線變得模糊
直到不能呼吸
讓我們　形影不離

如果　全世界我也可以放棄
至少還有你　值得我去珍惜
而你在這裡　就是生命的奇蹟
也許　全世界我也可以忘記
就是不願意　失去你的消息
你掌心的痣　我總記得在哪裡
我怕來不及　我要抱著你
直到感覺你的髮線　有了白雪的痕跡
直到視線變得模糊　
直到不能呼吸
讓我們　形影不離

我們好不容易　
我們身不由己
我怕時間太快　不夠將你看仔細
我怕時間太慢　日夜擔心失去你
恨不得一夜之間白頭　永不分離

We all have some wonderful memory in life. Bitter or Sweet, they are part of our life. I always believe there is nothing to regret for though we may feel pity for something we miss. However, in the end of day, I would enjoy every single moment with positive energy and attitude.

One Month

In the past one month, I have been through some unique experiences.

1. Nationality Convertion: I've officially converted my nationality to be a Singaporean. There are a lot of different thoughts in between but finally I made the decision and executed. Therefore, I spend one week plus in Singapore to register and process for my passport. In the past 2 weeks, I was waiting for my Taiwan work permit and also just returned from Hong Kong last Friday with my working/resident visa. It's very interesting experience when holding a different passport entering my motherland and even got to apply for Visa here but anyways, it's just part of the process for my next stage of life.

2. Work: I've never see myself as an employee as I only believe in running the business together with the organization so that I can "work" as though it's my own business. However, we encountered some severe casualty lately and I believe it's more about internal issues from the management style, philosophy, viewpoints and approaches. Though the market is getting tougher especially in this uncertain market situation, there are still a lot of organizations growing with enormous speed and it's because they have a group of people with united heart and belief. I'm still monitoring and observing how the organization is handing this challenge and situation as that's the best way for me to see the real way they look at people. This would also be the foundation for me to decide for the next step.

3. Life: I've also entered a relationship one month plus ago. Everything just happened so fast and it's just like a miracle. The first time, I haven't seen any conflicts between 2 people in all the aspects other than the possible feedback from my family. The most important thing I learned in the past one month plus is we all can be easily satisfied with basic and simple stuff; just a simple meal or a short walk can be so satisfying as long as with the right person.

So now, I'm a happy and satisfied "little woman" and look forward to the next stage to come in my life.