I haven't got the "lonely" feeling after I came back home this Jan. However, it just punched into my heart just now as I do not know who to turn to share my feelings. I could be a bit more sentimental because of my relationship lately but I do not like this kind of feeling at all.The last time I got this feeling should be the time I decided to change my life and leave Singapore so that I can have a fresh start. Though I declared a "new year" just now, it seems that I haven't really change my mindset totally so far. I'm not sure how important this relationship is to me but I felt really bad when I saw him on skype but not on MSN "NOW". It meant he just doesn't want to interact with me. I hate this kind of unclear situation. I do not see any reason why we can't speak openly even though 'breaking up''. I really don't know what he is thinking right now though I have always thought he is a direct person. It seems that I'm a more realistic and practical person now.
You guys must be wondering why I would have a "new year" now. In fact, we just started our new financial year today. That's the reason why I said it's a new year for me. I've spend almost half a year to get myself into this new line and "perform". To be frank, I wasn't doing well in the past a half a year as I haven't bought in any new business. Of course, I did feel frustrated sometimes but I would rather have a difficult start to really sharpen and equip myself the necessary skill and capacity needed to succeed in this line instead of getting business in by luck. I do see myself start to perform from this new financial year and I want myself to start flying off from this quarter and continue. Of course, hard work, time and efforts are all needed to achieve this but that's the commitment I have to myself. So new year, new start and new life in all the different aspects of my life.- Achieve at least 9 times of my pay roll cost.- New life style to get up early so that I have sufficient time to have a good start of my day.- Open myself for possible interaction with different people.- Achieve my fitness goal.Last but not least:- ENJOY MY LIFE!!