Positive Attitude

Thanks so much!! My Dear Friends!!

Seems that I threw a big bomb with my previous post. Thanks for all your e-mails and messages. I'm getting so much better now.

After a few days of resting and reflection, I feel so much better today. I think attitude really makes a lot of difference. When I felt so down the other day, I was just alone in Penang trying to figure out why and how I have my life this way. Staying away from home for so many years and now even traveling like mad.

However, today I felt so much released and organized. I guess it's because I organized up my work and listed down all the tasks that I need to concentrate on. It made me feel much more secured with a better planning.

Besides, I also chatted with a few friends today. Sometimes, it's really about how we look at things and our attitude would make things look very differently. After chatting with Tina, I realized that I got so many friends around though they might be next to me physically. We do care for each other. We visit each other's blogs. We e-mail and chat with each other. We also plan for trips that have never come true. :Q We plan for so many things together. Though we are all at different places, we are connected all the time. So I'm not alone at all.

Also chatted with Matt who just changed job 2 months back. Compared with the stress he got from the new environment, new company, new industry and new products, my task of selling my products is so much easier. At least, I am familiar with the company, industry and products. I only need to identify the correct channels and customers. So it seems not so difficult also.

However, I made a mistake when I was so down and trying to seek for some company the other day. I ended up pushing myself into something I don't want just because of my weak mind and the negative attitude. I should have known what I want and what I do not want. Nothing can replace what we really want in our hearts.

So the conclusion is "Positive Attitude" is so important that once I look at things positively, it becomes much more easier and I feel more comfortable also. Guess that's also the reason why people who are more confident with themselves can achieve more things as they do BELIEVE they can make it with the positive attitude.

Yap, got be POSITIVE then!!

Penang

Just came back from a business trip in Penang yesterday. This is my second visit to Penang. I was there in 2002 Dec for my birthday trip with my ex-boyfriend. We were traveling around Langkawi and Penang and we found one of the best Chandols in Malaysia. To me, it's even better than those in Melacca. There are actually 2 shops opposite each other but I went to the wrong one this time. Don't really have chance to try the other one to compare these two shops. Hopefully, I would have chance to visit Penang again as I'm concentrating on opening outstation markets for Malaysia now.

Just realized that this is my first time looking back what I have been through in the past few years. Mabye it's becuase of this particular place and the people involved or I just come to the age that I accumulated a few things to look back in my life. It's really a different feeling for me that I start to think of what I have done and been through. Is that the sign of aging?? : )

Disappointments

Have been through a few disappointments in the past four months. I always believe that I won't really get hurt if I do not have so much desire especially on those things that I can't control. Therefore, I try to cut down my wants and needs on certain things I do not have the control. However, lately I let my desire and feelings go freely and seems it's getting a bit out of control. The more I want, the more disappointments I get if I fail.

So I start wondering what I really want in life. I thought I just want a happy and simple life, but seems I spend a lot of time and efforts on study, work, and relationship to try to get something big out of them.

But what do I really have now?

Yap, I'm finishing my MBA course soon but I don't think I really get much out of this course. It's simply another piece of certificate to me.

Yap, I work hard to get my sense of fulfillment and money but seems the current development of my work is too slow in a way for me.

Yap, I start to learn how to open myself to express my feelings and know how to care for another person but now I also know how it feelts when the other person doesn't really care what I have put in.

I felt that my past 27 years are quite smooth in a way. Maybe it's because of my family education that I have been taught not to desire so much and can only rely on myself. So I limit myself in a box that I know I can live happily forever, but I'm also curious about how the life would be if I jump out of the box.

Here the bad news is it's not as good what I expect or I should say I have not yet learned how to handle it. It could be better if I really learn how to live out of this box or it could be even worse that I decide to go back to my small box and make it even smaller.

One friend told me that if I won't try I would never know. Yes, that's true but what would the result be if I keep trying and trying. More and more disappointments?? Or one day I can really make it??

Ruby's Visit

One of my best friends, Ruby, was in Singapore these 2 days because of transiting to New Zealand. She would be having her three weeks holiday from the North to the South of South Island. Can't wait to see those fantastic pictures. : )

During her two days visit in Singapore, we were planning to have one sight seeing day and one shopping day. In the end, we can only shop for two days as it's raining continuously these few days. Sunday morning, we went to Little India to have the traditional India breakfast which was introduce by Jessica. After that, we have no other choice but start our shopping in Orchard as it was raining so badly outside. Later on, Ivan, our ex-Singapore-trainee in Taiwan, joined us and we went to quite a few nice restaurants including The Royal Copenhagen Tea Lounge which servers the afternoon tea with the FAMOUS Copenhagen Tea Set, Boon Tong Kee Chicken Rice, Max Brenner Chocolate Bar at Esplanade. It was an interesting day that we explore quite a number of nice and new restaurants in Singapore. Haha.. Now, I got some more nice places to go. : )



On the second day, we went to Ya Kun for our breakfast as I think the Kaya Toast is one of the signature food in Singapore which Ruby can not miss. After that, we can only walk around town area as it was raining again. We visited Raffles Hotel which is one of the Six Stars hotel in Singapore and continued with our shopping. Besides, we went for Pedicure also. These two days are really "Tai Tai" day for both of us.

Only realized that Singapore is quite a nice place for a short holiday. For those people who have been talking about visiting me in Singapore for the past 4 years, it's time to act NOW since you have seen so many nice pictures showing the place and food around lu. : )

No More Exams

Just ended the 7th and also the last semester of my MBA course with the last 2 exams. I really finished the whole 14 subjects. I can't stop admiring myself for the struggling that I have been through in the past 21 months. Now, I only left with one dissertation and that's the end of my whole course. Ha Ha... : )

Ministry of Sound

Went to the newly opened Ministry of Sound with Ceci and Christ today. It's Lady's night so there is no cover charges for us. We were told that the queue would be quite long so we reached around 8:15 pm and started to queue. It's a nice place and they got a few different sections with different set ups and music. The most interesting one to me is "Pure". It's a nice cozy place with "white" as a theme and with some nice "BEDs" and sofas around. It looked very clean and luxury in a way becuase of the settings. Besides, they have a projector scrren made by water in the main area and that's something very exciting to me. I can only say the person who came out this idea is realy a genious.

We spent most of the time in the main area. The music was quite good at the beginning but so so after that. To me, it's not so dancable music in a way. However, around 11pm, we decided to dance a bit before leaving. Then the music became much more interesting and the crowd started to come in.

Generally, that is a place for "YOUNGER" crowd to me. : ) Nevertheless, it's still a very good experience. Next time, I would definitely spend more time at "PURE". I think that should be even more interesting.

Some More Pictures from Julie's Wedding

Finally, all the pictures taken on Julie's Wedding are all uploaded. There are 732 of them. Check out this LINK if you want to see all of them.

After checking most of the pictures, I realized that I forgot to take pictures with the wonderful night dress I was wearing that day. That might be my biggest investment in terms of dress up to now, but sorry that it's too cold that day and I didn't really take off my big jacket. Just pray that I would take my personal photo shoot soon so that you may have chance to see it. That is going to be a big surprise. ha ha.. : )

New Year Eve

Went for a group dinner with some trainees in Singapore for New Year Eve. We went to a very nice Turkish restaurant, Sofra. I have been there once and found the atmosphere and food quite good. This time, it's even better with friends around.

After that, we went to Thumpers at Goodwood Park Hotel. I really wanted to go clubbing as I haven't done it for a long time. Just felt going out and have a crazy night. The queue for New Year Even is really LONG. It took us one hour to get in and it's just about 3 minutes right before the count down. The live band there is quite entertaining. So they made the whole night very fun and high for us as they are playing those music that we are so familiar with. Everyone just kept shouting and singing together with the music. That is really fun!

2006 New Year Resolution

Have been thinking about my 2006 New Year Resolution from my last birthday in mid Dec. Finally, I have come out a few of them that I want to accomplish this year.

1. Professional Personal Photo Shoot
I have not yet taken any professional photo shots and I think it's time to have one set to presume the memory of me in late 20s.

2. Health & Fitness
- Yoga/Pilates: Have been doing both Yoga and Pilates for a while and I really enjoy this kind of exercise. Would work out another schedule after confirming the new place we would move to after Feb.
- Diet/weight Control: Lately, I'm more conscious about health and fitness as friends around me are either on non-carbohydrate diet or blood type diet, but I think it's also good to start to pay attention to this when I'm still young. Health is always the fundamental for anything everything that I want to do in the future.

3. Work Advancement
I have started working on overseas markets at the second half of last year and this move would influence my future career planning directly. So I target to open ASEAN market. Malaysia, Indonesia, Vietnam are on my first priority as well as India and Philippines if possible.

4. Traveling
- Japan (Cherry Blossom)
- Europe (Germany/Spain)
- Cambodia
- Thailand (Diving)
- New York (New Year Count Down)
- Home (Chinese New Year/Mother's Day/Father's Day)
Anyone interested in joining me at these destinations?

5. MBA
- Dissertation: This would be the last task for my MBA course and would need to submit my dissertation by March. Then I'm done with my MBA course. : )
- Graduation Ceremony: This would be the first that my parents visit me in Singapore. There are no other excuses that they do not "need" to visit me anymore. Ha... Ha...

6. Be Myself
-Just Do It!: One of my friends said that I'm a very rational person and my brain instead of my heart makes all the decisions. So sometimes, I just can't follow my heart. Late last year, I started to release my heart and just follow my feelings. I think it's a good sign that I just do whatever I want and then there is no regret in my life. So this year I would continue and it might not be that easy because I have such a strong mind on everything. : Q
- Cherish and Respect myself: I always believe people need to cherish and respect themselves then others would start to cherish and respect them. I also believe that there is nothing forever other than ourselves. So I decide to cherish myself much much more this year and do everything anything good for myself. We won't know if we still have the chance to do that again if we miss it.

7. Self Improvement
- Japanese: Have been spending my past three years studying. This year, I decide to continue my study but not those formal courses but more on self improvement. Japanese become the choice because I was looking for some Japanese book for a friend and sort of inspired by those books. Besides, I want to visit Japan later this year and this may help.
- Golfing: Seems Golf become a must when talking business at a higher level. My direcotors also suggested me to pick up so that I may have more chances to participate in some networking events. Since I would be free from formal courses this year, golf would come into one of my activites and hopefully I can pick up soon.

Happy Jenny with New Toy!

Have been buying a few things to celebrate my turing into the next stage of life. I got new dress, shoes and handbag, but the most impressive one should be my new PDA Phone. I have been thinking of changing phone for a while but can't really find anything up to my expectation and requirement. However, lately, one of Taiwan manufacture, HTC(High Tech Corporation), launched its own brand, Dopod, in Singapore. They are actually the manufacture for the popular O2. I was eyeing at O2 Atom, but Dopod 818 Pro caught my attention once they released in the market becuase of the better specification in communication. Up to now, this gadget is working fine with me though I would need to adjust my habit of using a simple phone to a PDA phone as the logic is quite different. I guess I started to enjoy the wireless communication features it got after starting to use it for a few days. Happy! Happy!

曖昧

Friends dedicated this song, 曖昧, by 楊丞琳 to me when I was back in Taiwan. It was about my personal situation but I started to like this song because of this melody and her voice. Just share with you here.

曖昧讓人受盡委屈　
找不到相愛的證據
何時該前進　何時該放棄
連擁抱都沒有勇氣

只能陪你到這裡　
畢竟有些事不可以
超過了友情　還不到愛情
遠方就要下雨的風景

到底該不該哭泣　
想太多是我還是你
我很不服氣　也開始懷疑
眼前的人　是不是同一個真實的你

曖昧讓人變得貪心　
直到等待失去意義
無奈我和你　寫不出結局
放遺憾的美麗　停在這裡

Trip back HOME

Was back at Taipei for the past 10 days. It's a holiday that I have been waiting for as I really need to relax a bit and meet up with friends and family to get recharged. Had dinner with my cousin and my dear 6-month old nephew last Monday. He really grows up very fast as he is so much taller and heavier than the first time I met him this Aug. Only now I realized that I might be better in taking care of kids than my dad. At least, he was not crying when I was carrying him. Maybe he just wanted to give me some "face" as we don't have chance to see each other so often.

It is my first Christmas back in Taipei after I started working in Singapore. It is very different as finally I have it in cooling Winter instead of HOT weather in Singapore. Besides, it is one of the coldest days in Taipei. We were walking around on Friday night and took this picture in front of Taipei 101, one of the most famous landmark in Taipei now. It's really great to see old friends around again.


We went to a very nice restaurant on Christmas Eve. It's actually run by one of the previous singer in Taiwan and the place is called "龍君兒的家" and recommended by Cindy. They converted part of their home to be the restaurant with fantastic view over Pacific Ocean at the North East Coast of Taiwan. And we had a great 10 courses lunch there. The dishes are quite nice and delicious though the price is at a high side. However, the nice setup and the view may justify the price already.

The most interesting part of the Christmas Eve is we went back to our uni for the count down. It is very different after 4 years. They have a few more new buildings and parks. The environment is really getting better and better in terms of facilities. We just sat in front of the central library and looked at the sky of Taipei. That was fascinating because of the friends around and unique experience that I have never had it even when I was back in uni. I guess everything is just different now after looking back. School campus is so much more enjoyable and quiet compared with the busy schedule and noisy environment we had in office.

Last day, we finally went to our favorite KTV to enjoy the nice food and the wonderful feeling to release our stress via SINGING. This is a very unique culture in Taiwan I guess and that's what I missed so much when staying away from HOME.

It's coming to be my 5th year in Singapore. Guess it's time to decide where to go for the next stage of my life. It is going to be a difficult decision as I may feel a bit confused when talking about " home". To be frank, I felt so much more relaxed and comfortable when back to my small room in Singapore. Maybe it's because I have stayed at this place for my past 2 years and that's what I'm really familiar with. However, it might be time to search the next destination and that's just another process in my life I guess.

Julie's Wedding

Was back for Julie's wedding last last Sat. I was involved for the whole day as I'm the "SISTERs" who are responsible to make the groom showing his capability to marry our dear bride. We had three stages for the groom.

Stage 1: We came out some questions about their first date which was almost 14 years ago. I can only say that the groom is not so good at remembering things so he just need to swallow some more wasami to pass this.

Stage 2: We were asking the groom to list down a few principles how he is going to cherish our dear bride in the years to come. Guess he was too excited and nervous that he can't really come out anything so once again Wasami for him. : )

Stage 3: Physical fitness is very important for the benefits of our dear bride. So here the groom was asked to carry the bride around the room to show how "strong" he is. All the "SISITERs" were so crazy that we asked the groom to do it again and again with every individual person showing up in the room. We were all joking that the groom just got to hang on to it so that he would not lose face at all. : )

The dinner is quite an impressive one as they had over 50 tables and over 600 guests. What really impressed me is the live video and the huge number of projectors they have to broadcast at the venue. Would try to get some more pictures to show you guys later.

2005

It marked the ending of my year end marathon shows yesterday. The PC Fair in JB is my last show of this year. Finally, I finished all of them this year.

Looking back for this year, I have been through quite a lot of changes in both work and personal life. I have a bigger coverage and responsibility in work. I finished all the classes for my MBA courses and left with only 2 papers, 1 dissertation and 3 months to go. Seems I'm getting along with all the changes well.

Would be going back home this Fri and would step into the next stage of my life this weekend also. Guess I should spend these few days to think about my planning and direction for 2006, a WHOLE NEW YEAR to come.

走路去紐約

每一次我想見到你 就要飛
無論地球上哪一角 我一天就到
用飛的原因不外乎 時間太少
你想擁有我每一秒 你今天就要

我飛的機會太多
有時因為你 有時為我自己
我飛過好幾萬哩
不覺得 那會是距離

突然很想不要飛 想走路去紐約
看看這一路我曾經忽略的一切
走路去紐約 也讓感情在時間裡
有機會 沉澱自己

Very touched when I listen to the latest album "Walking to New York" from Matilda Tao. She is one of the Taiwanese Female Artists that I really admire. She represents the so-called "Woman in the New Era": independent, confident and aggressive. In a way, this song depicts the feelings I have lately and guess that's the reason why I'm moved when I first listened to it.

The LAST Class of My MBA Course

Today is the LAST Class of my WHOLE MBA Course. It is really a challenge for me to cover both work and study at the past 19 months, but I managed to do it. Now, I only left with 2 assignments, 2 papers and 1 dissertation and I would finish them by March 2006. Finally, I'm going to start the next stage of my life soon. Don't think I'm going to take up any courses for the following few years as I need the flexibility to work as well as enjoy my LIFE.

Ha Ha.... : ) CONGRATULATIONS to ME!!

P.S. Finally, our class took the group pictures but it's at the end of the course. At least, got some proof to have all these classmates around for the past 19 months.

My Love Type

Just broswed a interesting website and did this Love Personality Test. The result seems to be quite true for my case.

Your love type: About 2-3% of the U.S. population possesses the combination of traits that make up this personality type. Being an INTJ means that you can be a real intellectual powerhouse. Chances are that your mind is almost constantly engaged by one fantastic thought or another. Because you're the kind who is highly creative, keeping up with you can be like riding an intellectual roller coaster. But your zest for life usually goes beyond your own big ideas and endeavors. You can take real pleasure in helping others to reach their dreams as well. As a result, INTJs like you can be wonderful coaches to help people attain their goals. You seem to know how to bring out the best in people.In relationships, your type is known for deeply valuing your commitments. Not the kind to be an open book, you're often hesitant to share your feelings with others — especially in the early stages of a relationship. You may take a long time to admit the depth of your feelings for someone. It may also take some coaxing to get you to share personal details about your life. This hesitance may be a form of protection for you since you know that you can develop very strong attachments to others. It also likely comes from your sense of loyalty. You seem to want to make sure that you can stand behind your words before you speak them. Once you do open up, you can love sharing your thoughts with someone you're close to. Still, you're not often the type to gush about your emotions. Instead, you'll let people know in little ways how you really feel. INTJs like you will reveal yourself to another person but only when you find someone with the right key to your mind and heart.

What makes you a good partner and friend?

You know how to stay true to your word
You can be an amazing resource for information
You possess almost boundless curiosity and imagination
You're a supportive and encouraging partner

Nov 2005

This is the last day of Nov 2005. It is considered one of the busiest month and toughest month I have ever got. I am very busy with the continuous exhibitions and events in both Singapore and Malaysia. Therefore, I really quite a lot and only now I realized how tiring it is. So I really admire those international sales people back in Taiwan that they can travel around the world like nobody's business.

Besides, this month is also very tough for me because there are a few small things going on at my work place. It is actually a small issue but I think it affects how I look at my work a lot. We are used to work on weekend or public holidays as we are working on consumer products. Events and exhibitions are part and parcel of our work life. Originally, we are given off day in lieu for working over weekend. I think it is normal as it means the organization recognizes the extra effort and time the staff put in. However, because of some miscommunication and misunderstanding, the management decided to stop this mechanism.

To be frank, I do not really care about the number of off days I got because I always have quite a number of off days being forfeited at the end of year as I can't finish them. To me, the work is always my first priority but I would try to make use of the off days to either be back home or have some holidays around. However, it is more about the feelings we, the staffs, have on this kind of changes as there is no proper communication made on this issue. I am not resistant on changes but I believe staffs need to be involved and explained on some changes involving themselves so that they can understand the reason why and the necessity of those changes. Furthermore, the side effect of this changes may cause some staffs losing the enthusiasms to organize events or exhibitions over weekend as their extra efforts are not recognized in the common way. I was quite upset at the beginning but I guess everything is all right now as I always put those negative thinking and emotions behind very fast and hopefully we are back to the orignial system already.

Anyway, this is the last day of Nov and I got only three more weeks to finish this peak season. Then I would be back to Taiwan for Julie's Wedding (You guys got to check out her wedding photos. She looks SO grogrous.) and enjoy my one week holiday back HOME.

Beside Me?

Has been crazily busy this month and would be like this until the middle of Dec as year end is always our peak season with lots of events and activities. Besides, I also need to travel a lot to Malaysia as I'm working on that market now also.

After this busy schedule and frequent traveling, I started wondering what I want out of this. I think I can still hang on because I have passion toward my work, but now I already felt exhausted and struggle to go through the following 3 tough weeks ahead.

I seem to be in a cycle. I was lost at the beginning of the year but got motivated and stimulated by a friend at the middle of the year. Now coming to the end of the year, I start to reflect on what I have done for the past 6 months. Seems I did have done something different and better. Hopefully, things would keep going on and I would find some other motivation to keep me going.

However, the deep feeling inside me now is "lonely" as most of the days I'm busy with work, and lately I spent quite a number of nights at hotel. What's "beside me" actually? Yes, I can definitely look for friends or families, but sometimes the person I want to talk to is not available or I just can't find a suitable person to share the particular feeling I have at that moment. So what's really left beside me at this kind of lifestyle? Another big question for me to find out.

Went through today with two extreme emotions but good thing is I ended up with the good one. Was exhausted physically and tired mentally this evening, but met up a old friend after working at the show. We talked about life lately and the busy schedule we both had for this month. At the end, he mentioned he forgave me for some decision I made previously. It really relieved me and made me feel that I still got good friends around that I can share life with.

I still got someone beside me I guess.

House Hunting

Just got the bad news that they are going to knock down my sweet home so we got to find another place by the end of this year. It is really a sad news to me as I really like my place a lot. It's a very nice cozy room that I can really have a good rest and I believe this is also one of the best options I can find in Singapore in terms of environment. It should be quite difficult to find another place like this. Too Bad!! Got to start house hunting again. For those who haven't visit my place yet, you may want to plan some trips before end of year so that at least you can experience the nice place you can see from the pictures here. You would definitely love it also. : )