Ironic

How ironic it is!! The first relationship I have ever announced publicly seems to be the shortest I have ever have. Though we have not really talked about it directly, I do not see the possibility and reason to continue based on the situation lately. I still have quires in mind about what have changed the situation though I have no problem to accept the fact that we are just not for each other. Hopefully, we got the chance to talk in person so as to clarify the situation and my quires in mind.

Though it could be my shortest relationship so far, I still see myself improving in the past three months. I do enjoy the process to learn more about myself, to open myself up, and to look at myself from another angle. Besides, if not for this relationship, I might not be able to walk out from some negative feelings so easily three months ago.

Furthermore, I also understand the reason why people said "women just can't live without love". Being in a relationship really made myself life more interesting and enjoyable. The interaction with others and with the inner self simply make my life full of fun. I can only probably say I would try different methods to have this factor in my life so as to enrich myself further though the current one won't work any more.

為你我受冷風吹

剛躺在床上聽到廣播在放這首歌
老歌就是有他一定的韻味
所以聽起來就更有感觸

為你我受冷風吹
詞/曲:李宗盛

為你我受冷風吹 寂寞時候流眼淚
有人問我是與非 說是與非
可是誰又真的關心誰 若是愛已不可為
你明白說吧無所謂 不必給我安慰
何必怕我傷悲 就當我從此收起真情 誰也不給
我會試著放下往事 管它過去有多美
也會試著不去想起 你如何用愛將我包圍
那深情的滋味 但願我會就此放下往事
忘了過去有多美 不盼緣盡仍留慈悲
雖然我曾經這樣以為 我真的這樣認為

為你我受冷風吹 寂寞時候流眼淚
有人問我是與非 說是與非
可是誰又真的關心誰 若是愛已不可為
你明白說吧無所謂 不必給我安慰
何必怕我傷悲 就當我從此收起真情 誰也不給
我會試著放下往事 管它過去有多美
也會試著不去想起 你如何用愛將我包圍
那深情的滋味 但願我會就此放下往事
忘了過去有多美 不盼緣盡仍留慈悲
雖然我曾經這樣以為 我真的這樣認為

為你我受冷風吹 寂寞時候流眼淚
有人問我是與非 說是與非
可是誰又真的關心誰 會關心誰誰會關心誰

最近的心情有所曲折
所以聽到這首歌會開始回想一些過去發生過的事
我其實是一個很會調整自己而且不會讓自己持續在負面的情緒裡的
或許就因此更不容易示弱或交心
但這首歌讓我看到幾個不同階段裡的我
總有人說往事不堪回首
但我覺得那才是成長的過程
只希望我的智慧是真的有所以成長
否則那些時間跟心力可能就有點白費了

Ariel's Engagement

Ariel was engaged last Sun, 24 June. She is the first one to be engaged among my NTU gangs. Cindy and I would be her bridesmaids and this is my 2nd time. I was joking with Cindy that I got only one more time left so my girlfriends should all bit for that.

I'm really happy for Ariel as they have been together for almost 9 years starting from our 2nd year in uni. It's really a long time and we have been through the up and down of their relationship together.
We all happy to see that they decided to tie the knot and step into the next stage of life together. I was really moved during the ceremony and my tears almost came out at that moment.

The wedding ceremony would be in mid Sep and we would have another gathering again though Tina won't be able to make it. Hope our gang got chance to gather at the same place again real soon.

Singapore ≈ Home

Went "BACK" to Singapore for 4 days during the Dragon Boat Festival long weekend. I did not take any pictures this trip though I used to use pictures to record my visit to any place, but I decided to use my "HEART" to record this trip this time.

I actually had a very funny feeling when I was taking MRT to town from airport. It felt like I was going back "home" though I have been back to Taiwan for 5 months. It seems that I'm more familiar with Singapore than Taipei. Guess I have some confusion on where my "home" is now.

I actually applied for Singapore Citizenship last year and i got the approval letter this time. I would really need to think over again and decide if I really want to convert as I need to give up my Taiwan nationality.

Nancy's Visit Back Home

Nancy was back late May after 2 years studying in Singapore. We have not yet seen each other after I came back for GMAT in late 2003. It's been almost 4 years and now she is a "WIFE", which was a surprise to all of us. However, I can see her with a different mindset and direction. I'm really heppy for her. Besides, I also met up with a few friends that I haven't seen for a long long time after graduating from university. Gues this is the best thing to be back in Taiwan so that I got chance to see some other friends.

Things are happning!!

Things are just happening around me one after another. This morning on my taxi ride to office, I happened to touch my right ear and realized that my diamond ear ring was missing. It's my first diamond accessories that I bought for myself three years ago. It just went missing this morning. I was a bit upset at that moment as it's very meaningful to me.

Not sure if it's a signal to me as things are just happening around me. I did believe things are happening for a reason. However, I tried to think from a positive angle. Maybe it's just time for me to buy a new one. Anyway, I decided to check if I can find the exactly the same one to match the other left when I'm visiting Singapore two weeks later. I still want to keep them as their are just my first set of diamond ear rings.

He's Just Not That Into You!

Was browsing another friend's blog and saw her blogged about the same topic as I did 2 years ago: He's Just Not That Into You! Then I went back to my own post and read through it again.

1. He's Just Not That Into You If He's Not Asking You Out
2. He's Just Not That Into You If He's Not Calling You
3. He's Just Not That Into You If He's Not Dating You
4. He's Just Not That Into You If He's Not Having Sex with You
5. He's Just Not That Into You If He's Having Sex with Someone Else
6. He's Just Not That Into You If He Only Wants to See You When He's Drunk
7. He's Just Not That Into You If He Doesn't Want to Marry You
8. He's Just Not That Into You If He's Breaking Up with You
9. He's Just Not That Into You If He's Disappeared on You
10. He's Just Not That Into You If He's Married (and Other Insane Variations of Being Unavailable
11. He's Just Not That Into You If He's a Selfish Jerk, a Bully, or a Really Big Freak

Again, this makes me recognize the reality. Yes, I want someone really "into me" and want to share my life so that we can grow together. This sounds simple but not really as first of all, he needs to be someone that I would look upon to. It seems to be a difficult criteria. Other than this, the most important part is "inspiration" so that I can learn something from him and so dose he. The best part is we can grow together and build a better life. Sounds simple but a big challenge still.

Funny or Wired!?

It's a funny day or I should put it "wired". Yesterday night, I went to one of my girlfriends' place and had a girl talk with her and another girlfriend. We talked about our life, career, future, relationship, family and things like that. That was quite a long and interesting talk as all three of us are having a turning point in our life I would say. So we are all facing new challenges and searching for different direction and path. We left almost 1am in the midnight as her boyfriend already made 5 phone calls during our chat for their regular evening talk. In the end, we all have some sort of conclusion for our next step.

My next step is to make a trip down to Taichung this morning to give my BF a surprise as we have not seen each other for two weeks plus and he would only come up to Taipei late next week. So I took the 8 AM fast speed rail to Taichung.

During the train ride, I was sorting out my SMS message and accidentally I delet all the SMS that i archieve in the past one and half a year and this made me start to feel wired for the day. After reaching the station, I took a very "expensive" taxi to his place. That's supposed to be a surprise to him but the result turn out to be a surprise to me instead.

The reason why I decided to go down is because I got a feeling that something is going on or I should say something went wrong but I can't really tell. I suppose I would have a better idea when I'm there with him. At least, we can talk and tell from the facial expression and body language.

However, the thing did not go like what I hope though we did meet up. That half an hour was a bit suffocating and it's just not like what we used to be. Then I took the 11:30 am train back to Taipei. I'm still thinking what should be my next step. It should be quite clear as long as my mind and heart are clear as well but that should not be a problem for me.