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Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Family
Family really plays an important role in our life. A few things happened these two weeks. One of our relatives passed away because of traffic accident. I was really shock when I first knew it as our last memory of this kind of thing was long long time ago when my great grandma passed away. So all my cousins and I went back last weekend. We couldn't go back immediately as all of us need to work during week days. It was really sad when I saw my auntie crying non-stop. I might not be able to know how she felt exactly about losing a life partner, but I can imagine how painful it would be when we lose any of our family members. My father and uncle went back immediately and helped on the arrangement. That's when I realized how important and close family member can be.
Another thing happened last week also made me realize how important and supportive family can be. One of my cousins and her husband were supposed to come back last week also because of this. However, they had an argument on the way back and he just dropped her then went back to Taipei straight away. Of course, there are several causes for this from the beginning of the marriage.
In my point of view, her husband doesn't care about her and the kid. Besides, to him and his family, wife or daughter in law are still outsider to the family. "Daughter in law" is the one who supposed to do everything for the family and they really take it for granted. Sad to say that but I think my cousin now is only there for her son and I doubt how long it can last. She is actually the best-tempered among 5 girls in my family. Her husband isn't really like her to interact with us. I guess he just worried that we would give her some "bad" ideas and thoughts. However, that night, all the family members talked to her all together and I believe we did make her feel how supportive we are with any decision she is going to make. All 5 sisters just squeezed into the smallest room like what we did when we were kids though now we have a few big rooms around. That's "family" and I think I made a correct decision to come back. I want to be with my family.
Another thing happened last week also made me realize how important and supportive family can be. One of my cousins and her husband were supposed to come back last week also because of this. However, they had an argument on the way back and he just dropped her then went back to Taipei straight away. Of course, there are several causes for this from the beginning of the marriage.
In my point of view, her husband doesn't care about her and the kid. Besides, to him and his family, wife or daughter in law are still outsider to the family. "Daughter in law" is the one who supposed to do everything for the family and they really take it for granted. Sad to say that but I think my cousin now is only there for her son and I doubt how long it can last. She is actually the best-tempered among 5 girls in my family. Her husband isn't really like her to interact with us. I guess he just worried that we would give her some "bad" ideas and thoughts. However, that night, all the family members talked to her all together and I believe we did make her feel how supportive we are with any decision she is going to make. All 5 sisters just squeezed into the smallest room like what we did when we were kids though now we have a few big rooms around. That's "family" and I think I made a correct decision to come back. I want to be with my family.
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Earthquake
Earthquake is very common in Taiwan. We have it almost every minute. It is only a matter of BIG or SMALL. The BIG ones are those you can feel. This evening about 7PM, there was a 6.2 degree earthquake in Tai Dong and of couse it was big enough to feel it. I was in my office at that time. By the way, my office is at the 52 floor of Taipei 101, the highest building in the world up to now. Everyone in the office started to ask each other if there was really an earthquake as we can feel the shaking. One of the colleagues was on overseas call and reported the live news about how we felt at 52 floor of Taipei 101 during earthquake.
To be frank, I was a bit worried about earthquake issue when talking about the location of the office at the beginning. However, that was not really that bad up there. Maybe it's really because of the structure and construction of the building.
To be frank, I was a bit worried about earthquake issue when talking about the location of the office at the beginning. However, that was not really that bad up there. Maybe it's really because of the structure and construction of the building.
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Executive Search Consultant
Would start my career as Executive Search Consultant officially tomorrow. It is a totally different field though I would still be targeting IT related industries. It is a big switch from hardware to service. The mindset, attitude and interpretation could all be different from what I used to have, but guess that's the change I'm looking for.
Actually, I came back to Taiwan two weeks ago. In the past two weeks, I sorted out my room, bought some essential stuff, some winter clothes and identified one Hot Yoga studio in Taipei. I tried to find a way to continue the lifestyle I have established during the past five years in Singapore.
Things are getting quite ok other than some arguments with my parents. I can't really understand how they can make the whole apartment like trash field as they collected back everything they think it's still working though they don't really need it at all. We have four bedrooms and all of them are full with stuff which are redundant to me as none of us is going to use them at all. They just keep everything because they think these things are still working. What I can do is to defend my room with only things I want and need and ignore every other corner in this apartment. Otherwise, I think I would get crazy and arguing with them everyday.
Anyway, it's quite relaxing and enjoyable two weeks and I shopped like crazy as I know I would not have time to do all these once I start tomorrow. The other day, I visited the office and my supervisor showed me my three months plan and the target they set for me. I really got to perform immediately and I think that's also my expectation on myself.
I WOULD MAKE IT!!
Actually, I came back to Taiwan two weeks ago. In the past two weeks, I sorted out my room, bought some essential stuff, some winter clothes and identified one Hot Yoga studio in Taipei. I tried to find a way to continue the lifestyle I have established during the past five years in Singapore.
Things are getting quite ok other than some arguments with my parents. I can't really understand how they can make the whole apartment like trash field as they collected back everything they think it's still working though they don't really need it at all. We have four bedrooms and all of them are full with stuff which are redundant to me as none of us is going to use them at all. They just keep everything because they think these things are still working. What I can do is to defend my room with only things I want and need and ignore every other corner in this apartment. Otherwise, I think I would get crazy and arguing with them everyday.
Anyway, it's quite relaxing and enjoyable two weeks and I shopped like crazy as I know I would not have time to do all these once I start tomorrow. The other day, I visited the office and my supervisor showed me my three months plan and the target they set for me. I really got to perform immediately and I think that's also my expectation on myself.
I WOULD MAKE IT!!
Monday, January 08, 2007
Farewell
Today, 7th Jan, is my last day in Singapore as I would be flying off on 8th. Therefore, I arranged our regular Sunday Dim Sum as my farewell. Actually, the Sunday Dim Sum was started by Yen and Alex 6 years ago I think. The group was getting bigger and bigger after the Novena Gang including Alex, Grace, Sandy, me and others joined. We really had it every Sunday at that time but we did not continue since SARS period. That was a very enjoyable period of time as all of us are foreigners in Singapore and that's like weekly family gathering to us. Therefore, I decided to have Dim Sum for my farewell.
I would be flying off in 11 hours and end my 5 years and 5 months stay in Singapore. I did not thinking of staying here for such a long time when I first arrived. However, opportunities and different events of life just came along and I really stayed here for quite a while. I'm really very happy that I'm here for the past 5 years plus and I did have a lot of advancement in life, viewpoints, education, and career development. Now, it's time for my next stage in life for some more new and different challenges. Good luck and all the best to myself. : )
I would be flying off in 11 hours and end my 5 years and 5 months stay in Singapore. I did not thinking of staying here for such a long time when I first arrived. However, opportunities and different events of life just came along and I really stayed here for quite a while. I'm really very happy that I'm here for the past 5 years plus and I did have a lot of advancement in life, viewpoints, education, and career development. Now, it's time for my next stage in life for some more new and different challenges. Good luck and all the best to myself. : )
Sunday, January 07, 2007
Singapore National Museum
Visited the Singapore National Museum once when I first arrived Singapore. I remembered it wasn't impressive as most of the exhibits were quite normal and I could get more detail and better exhibits back in Taiwan actually. They just finished the renovation which started two years ago if I remembered correctly. A lot of people told me about that and all the comments are very good. Therefore, I decided to pay it a visit before leaving as well. Actually, I was planning to go during either Christmas or New Year long holiday but was busy with some other stuff I guess. So yesterday is the only day left for me actually.
When I first stepped into the entrance, I was quite impressed as I like this kind of bright and white environment a lot. I only visited the Living and History parts as I think that's really something about Singapore. There are four section in the Living Galleries: Fashion, Food, Film & Wayang, and Photography. I like the Food section the most as there are some documentary videos showing people making the various local food and their life in the past. As to the History part, that's also quite good as they used a story telling style to guide visitors through the history of Singapore from 14th Century. There are some nice dining and cafe places there but I didn't have time to try on Sat.
Today, after my farewell Dim Sum lunch, I visited the cafe at National Museum together with KT, Yen, Chou and Rico. The place is really quite nice as I like the bright and white setting but the cafe is so so only and quite costly. Overall, we had a very interesting and enjoyable chatting. It should be a wonderful ending of my time in Singapore.
When I first stepped into the entrance, I was quite impressed as I like this kind of bright and white environment a lot. I only visited the Living and History parts as I think that's really something about Singapore. There are four section in the Living Galleries: Fashion, Food, Film & Wayang, and Photography. I like the Food section the most as there are some documentary videos showing people making the various local food and their life in the past. As to the History part, that's also quite good as they used a story telling style to guide visitors through the history of Singapore from 14th Century. There are some nice dining and cafe places there but I didn't have time to try on Sat.
Today, after my farewell Dim Sum lunch, I visited the cafe at National Museum together with KT, Yen, Chou and Rico. The place is really quite nice as I like the bright and white setting but the cafe is so so only and quite costly. Overall, we had a very interesting and enjoyable chatting. It should be a wonderful ending of my time in Singapore.
Saturday, January 06, 2007
My Humble House
Had dinner with Jessica at My Humble House on Friday night. I have been thinking of visiting this restaurant as it is quite famous but was either considering the high price or just fully booked. It's the same case on Friday originally because it's fully booked until 8:30 PM. However, I just want to finish the list of places I want to visit before leaving. So we just decided to wait.
They have both set menu and a la cat. There are three set menus but the first two doesn't look interesting at all. So we decided to order one set of the most expensive celebration menu which is S$88+++, one spinach tofu and one chawanmushi to share. The food really tasted very good and the settings in the restaurnat is quite unique also. Overall, it's quite a nice place to go if not considering the price. Can try to arrange a lunch or dinner there if you got people to cover the bill lu. : )
They have both set menu and a la cat. There are three set menus but the first two doesn't look interesting at all. So we decided to order one set of the most expensive celebration menu which is S$88+++, one spinach tofu and one chawanmushi to share. The food really tasted very good and the settings in the restaurnat is quite unique also. Overall, it's quite a nice place to go if not considering the price. Can try to arrange a lunch or dinner there if you got people to cover the bill lu. : )
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Wild Rocket
Had lunch with Ying at Wild Rocket, one of the restaurants on my visiting list before leaving Singapore. From the website and review, that place seems to have a nice view though it's located at a higher end backpacker hostel. I only thought of calling them to book a table late morning. Surprisingly, it's FULLY BOOKED until 1:30PM. I reached the place around 1 plus to wish there might be table available earlier. However, it was really FULL.
The place didn't really have a nice view but I like the setting. It's very bright, clean and neat. The most important thing is the food is really quite nice. We shared one set lunch with soft shell crab, the signature burger, the pudding and strawberry cheese cake. Guess we were really quite hungry as I only remember to take picture for the starter. We went straight to the main course and desserts directly without thinking of taking pictures at all. ;Q
All I can say is the food is really nice and I think I would come back again for some other dishes and desserts. It's such a pity that I only found out this place 6 days before leaving. Anyway, I would come back to Singapore again sometime somehow and would surely visit this place again.
Sunday, December 31, 2006
Syscom
Had my last visit to Syscom with Mr. Wu on 28th Dec. I went for an important appointment in late morning and had the review meeting in the afternoon. I only announced my leaving to my colleagues in Malaysia on that day. Guess it was quite shocking at the beginning as nobody would ever think of my leaving at all. However, all of them are experienced enough to handle this and I believe they can carry on the tasks as usual.
I have spend most of my time and effort these two years in Malaysia and some overseas markets. I'm really happy to see the progress in the past two years because of out hard work and efforts together. That's the most fulfilling part. Guess I just need to keep looking for new challenges and new sense of fulfillment.
I have spend most of my time and effort these two years in Malaysia and some overseas markets. I'm really happy to see the progress in the past two years because of out hard work and efforts together. That's the most fulfilling part. Guess I just need to keep looking for new challenges and new sense of fulfillment.
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Last Christmas in Singapore
This is my last Christmas in Singapore before going back. Nacho organized a Christmas Eve Dinner at his place and invited a group of AIESEC trainees. I prepared two dishes. One is the dumpling contributed by my cousin and the other is fish. Luckily, I got dumplings as it could be quite difficult to eat the fish without rice. Guess that's the reason why I don't really cook dishes unless I got a few people to share the rice.
On Christmas Day, I met up with Albert at Raffles Hotel. We were thinking to visit the newly opened National Museum but my hip joint was doing well so that I can't walk properly. Anyway, we just walked around Raffles Hotel itself and realized that there is a performance from Victoria JC Choir in the early afternoon. That was Albert's school and he did the same thing 10 years ago I guess. They were really singing very well and it's so much fun to imagine how Albert looked like standing and singing over there 10 years ago.
Later on, we went to one of my favorite bakeries at Raffles Hotel, Ah Teng Bakery. I blogged about it a few weeks ago. Last week, I brought Matt over there to try their Kaya Toast and Dim Sum breakfast set also. I have managed to try their cakes, sandwiches, Kaya toast, dim sum, and scorns. I really enjoy the nice setting and atmosphere of this place and the price is quite reasonable. This should be a place that I would miss in Singapore.
On Christmas Day, I met up with Albert at Raffles Hotel. We were thinking to visit the newly opened National Museum but my hip joint was doing well so that I can't walk properly. Anyway, we just walked around Raffles Hotel itself and realized that there is a performance from Victoria JC Choir in the early afternoon. That was Albert's school and he did the same thing 10 years ago I guess. They were really singing very well and it's so much fun to imagine how Albert looked like standing and singing over there 10 years ago.
Later on, we went to one of my favorite bakeries at Raffles Hotel, Ah Teng Bakery. I blogged about it a few weeks ago. Last week, I brought Matt over there to try their Kaya Toast and Dim Sum breakfast set also. I have managed to try their cakes, sandwiches, Kaya toast, dim sum, and scorns. I really enjoy the nice setting and atmosphere of this place and the price is quite reasonable. This should be a place that I would miss in Singapore.
Saturday, December 23, 2006
Fosters - An English Rose Cafe
Ivan and Kay brought me to Fosters at Holland Village this afternoon. We talked about this gathering for a few weeks since I informed them of my leaving. Ivan actually did some research on line to find this nice place. Holland Village is quite a famous area in Singapore for its wild variety of nice food. I didn't really visited there often as that's quite far and not reachable by public transportation.
We ordered a afternoon tea set, one apple pie and one banana cripes. The food is really quite nice especially the scorn and I like the environment quite a lot. It's not easy to find a nice and quiet place in town where we can enjoy the sunshine.
Afterwards, we walked around Chip Bee Gardens at Jalan Merah Saga and this is a very interesting place with all the different restaurants and stores selling nice food stuff. It's really a nice place worth visiting and food there should be very good also.
Guess people would only start to treasure things that they know they are going to lose soon or they realized they have lost. Same here I guess. I really started to plan to visit many more places in Singapore these two weeks before I fly back. I have taken a lot of things for granted in the past five years as I know they would be around most of the time until one day I realize they are not.
The funny thing is the companion becomes so important and crucial to me somehow. I just don't want to go any places along. I want to go with people I care so that I can share the precious memory with them. Hope I got the chance to do so before I leave.
We ordered a afternoon tea set, one apple pie and one banana cripes. The food is really quite nice especially the scorn and I like the environment quite a lot. It's not easy to find a nice and quiet place in town where we can enjoy the sunshine.
Afterwards, we walked around Chip Bee Gardens at Jalan Merah Saga and this is a very interesting place with all the different restaurants and stores selling nice food stuff. It's really a nice place worth visiting and food there should be very good also.
Guess people would only start to treasure things that they know they are going to lose soon or they realized they have lost. Same here I guess. I really started to plan to visit many more places in Singapore these two weeks before I fly back. I have taken a lot of things for granted in the past five years as I know they would be around most of the time until one day I realize they are not.
The funny thing is the companion becomes so important and crucial to me somehow. I just don't want to go any places along. I want to go with people I care so that I can share the precious memory with them. Hope I got the chance to do so before I leave.
Friday, December 22, 2006
What a pleasant lunch!
I have officially announced my leaving of Singapore to my colleagues these two days. Guess it's quite a shocking news to most of them as they have never thought of that at all. My nice directors also started to invite me to try some more different and nice food in Singapore these two days. Yesterday, we went to try a nice Hokkien Mee at East Coast Road. Today, we went to La Vela, the Italian restaurant at Keppel Club. I had cod fish and that's really quite nice. Guess I would be having a few more meals like this these two weeks and it's always great to try some new and nice food.
Monday, December 18, 2006
Happy Birthday!!
Met up with my group of girl friends in Singapore tonight to celebrate my birthday. It was supposed to be only a small gathering and farewell as Bulan would be traveling in New Zealand and Australia from this Friday and we won't have chance to meet again before I fly off.
However, guess I select today as I just don't want to have dinner alone on my birthday. : ) We had dinner at Kopi Tiam located at 2F of Swissotel the Stamford Hotel as I want to have nice local food at nice ambiance. The food is really quite nice though the price is at least three times higher than the hawker food we got outside.
After we finished the meal, our heart-warming friends brought me an surprise with this cute Birthday Cookie. It's really beautiful and testy. Guess women just simply can't resist any sweet and high sugar stuff.
Afterwards, we moved on to my favorite bar in Singapore, City Space, at the 70th of Swissotel the Stamford Hotel. We had a lot of fun with drinks, chats, songs and games. This is really one of my best birthday. Thanks!! All my dear friends!!
However, guess I select today as I just don't want to have dinner alone on my birthday. : ) We had dinner at Kopi Tiam located at 2F of Swissotel the Stamford Hotel as I want to have nice local food at nice ambiance. The food is really quite nice though the price is at least three times higher than the hawker food we got outside.
After we finished the meal, our heart-warming friends brought me an surprise with this cute Birthday Cookie. It's really beautiful and testy. Guess women just simply can't resist any sweet and high sugar stuff.
Afterwards, we moved on to my favorite bar in Singapore, City Space, at the 70th of Swissotel the Stamford Hotel. We had a lot of fun with drinks, chats, songs and games. This is really one of my best birthday. Thanks!! All my dear friends!!
Sunday Brunch
Have only four weekends left before leaving. Therefore, I tried to plan my activities to visit as many places as possible. So I asked KT out for Sunday brunch at Marmalade Pantry. I ordered this "Egg Benedict" and KT ordered "French Toast with Caramelised Applies fig & Honey Ice Cream". They are quite nice though I was actually expecting it to be much better as I have read quite a number of good reviews about this place and the brunch. Generally speaking, it's quite nice place and food. Would try to have some other dishes again if I have chance.
After that, we caught two movies and walked around Orchard. Since this might be my last Christmas in Singapore for the upcoming few more years, we just tried to record down the magnificent view of this giant Christmas tree at Ngee Ann City. It has been an interesting experience to see five different Christmas tree there and I do expect to see a lot more different design in the coming years.
After that, we caught two movies and walked around Orchard. Since this might be my last Christmas in Singapore for the upcoming few more years, we just tried to record down the magnificent view of this giant Christmas tree at Ngee Ann City. It has been an interesting experience to see five different Christmas tree there and I do expect to see a lot more different design in the coming years.
Thursday, December 14, 2006
10 Things I would miss in Singapore
I have been trying to list down things I want to do, places I want to go, or food I want to have before leaving Singapore. I did come out a few of them such as visiting the new revamped National Museum, having brunch at Wild Rocket and Marmalade Pantry as well as Dinner at My Humble House, but that's about all up to now. May need to do some more research or inputs to experience more about the different faces of Singapore in the last four weeks.
However, during the process, instead of listing down the new things that I want to try, I managed to list down 10 things that I think I would miss in Singapore. There are food, places and shopping. These may somehow summarize my past five years living in Singapore. Guess I would try to visit places again and take some pictures.
1. Black Paper Crab and Chilly Crab from Jumbo
2. Kaya Toast from Yakun
3. Sugar Roll from Polar
4. The Night Scene at The Altivo, Mout Faber
5. The Night Scene at Cityspace, Swissotel The Stamford Hotel
6. Kinokuniya Bookstore at Ngee Ann City
7. Shopping Malls along Orchard Rd.
8. Mango
9. Chicken Rice from Wee Nam Kee
10. Popian from Qi Ji
P.S. Mango just started their sales yesterday. Bought two dresses as it's kind of good price. Should have some occasions to show these two nice dresses soon. : )
However, during the process, instead of listing down the new things that I want to try, I managed to list down 10 things that I think I would miss in Singapore. There are food, places and shopping. These may somehow summarize my past five years living in Singapore. Guess I would try to visit places again and take some pictures.
1. Black Paper Crab and Chilly Crab from Jumbo
2. Kaya Toast from Yakun
3. Sugar Roll from Polar
4. The Night Scene at The Altivo, Mout Faber
5. The Night Scene at Cityspace, Swissotel The Stamford Hotel
6. Kinokuniya Bookstore at Ngee Ann City
7. Shopping Malls along Orchard Rd.
8. Mango
9. Chicken Rice from Wee Nam Kee
10. Popian from Qi Ji
P.S. Mango just started their sales yesterday. Bought two dresses as it's kind of good price. Should have some occasions to show these two nice dresses soon. : )
Sunday, December 10, 2006
搭訕
今天還頗有感而發的, 所以就繼續下去吧。可能因為從小就是眾人目光的焦點, 所以我也習慣了旁人注目的眼光。我可以很清楚得感受到人家在看我, 但我還是依然故我, 畢竟眼睛長在人家臉上, 我也不能怎樣。
但有些時候就不只是眼光而已。 開始工作之後, 遇過幾次搭訕的情況。我是個很不常上夜店泡的人, 所以記憶中搭訕的狀況都發生在路上。今天中午出門去烏節路走走, 在多美哥換車的時候就感覺到一個人一直跟著我, 我是個走路很快的人, 所以我試著改變路徑嘗試擺脫, 畢竟我不怎麼時興在路上交朋友。最終還是被堵住了因為去烏節路的人真的太多了, 所以千遍一率地問題來了: 要去哪裡啊? 要去吃中飯嗎? 跟男朋友還是老公約嗎?
老實說, 被搭訕可能是種讚美, 畢竟不是每個人都可以這樣鼓起勇氣在路上跟陌生人講話, 我可能真的那麼有吸引力吧! 但是, 當搭訕的對象完全不在我個人可接受的範圍之內那就變成了一種騷擾。尤其被問了三遍有沒有可能共進午餐也明確地拒絕三遍之後, 他還硬遞給我他的名片, 我開始有點擔心我的人身安全, 所以我就真的大步且快步地離去。
寫這個不是想炫燿, 而是我開始思考我是否吸引到不適合的目光。也就是說, 怎麼都沒有我喜歡那種形的男生來搭訕呢? 後來想想, 我應該不是那種可以在路上就結識人的人吧! 有印象以來, 吸引我目光的人通常都是在工作上讓我覺得可以跟我匹配的人, 所以我應該別奢求"搭訕"可以幫到我什麼忙吧! 但我想我還是頗期待有個真的讓我覺得impressive的人來搭訕吧!
但有些時候就不只是眼光而已。 開始工作之後, 遇過幾次搭訕的情況。我是個很不常上夜店泡的人, 所以記憶中搭訕的狀況都發生在路上。今天中午出門去烏節路走走, 在多美哥換車的時候就感覺到一個人一直跟著我, 我是個走路很快的人, 所以我試著改變路徑嘗試擺脫, 畢竟我不怎麼時興在路上交朋友。最終還是被堵住了因為去烏節路的人真的太多了, 所以千遍一率地問題來了: 要去哪裡啊? 要去吃中飯嗎? 跟男朋友還是老公約嗎?
老實說, 被搭訕可能是種讚美, 畢竟不是每個人都可以這樣鼓起勇氣在路上跟陌生人講話, 我可能真的那麼有吸引力吧! 但是, 當搭訕的對象完全不在我個人可接受的範圍之內那就變成了一種騷擾。尤其被問了三遍有沒有可能共進午餐也明確地拒絕三遍之後, 他還硬遞給我他的名片, 我開始有點擔心我的人身安全, 所以我就真的大步且快步地離去。
寫這個不是想炫燿, 而是我開始思考我是否吸引到不適合的目光。也就是說, 怎麼都沒有我喜歡那種形的男生來搭訕呢? 後來想想, 我應該不是那種可以在路上就結識人的人吧! 有印象以來, 吸引我目光的人通常都是在工作上讓我覺得可以跟我匹配的人, 所以我應該別奢求"搭訕"可以幫到我什麼忙吧! 但我想我還是頗期待有個真的讓我覺得impressive的人來搭訕吧!
寂寞與孤單的差別
已經五年沒好好地用中文寫作, 該是時候要好好練習一下。總覺得我從小就已經習慣寂寞, 畢竟從小長時間就是一個人。以前也讀過一本書"享受寂寞", 講的就是如何享受一個人的時光, 畢竟那可能是一個人唯一可以沉澱思考的時間。這五年來, 我也老覺得寂寞是正常的。就算之前有男朋友的時候, 我也會一個人逛街, 吃飯, 看電影, 因為我還頗享受那安靜的時光。
但是, 最近這幾個月發覺我不只是感到寂寞, 應該說是孤單吧! 一直在想寂寞與孤單的差別, 照字面說來, 寂寞應該是寂靜沉默而孤單是孤獨, 感覺上好像沒大分別, 但是是有分別的。寂寞的時候可能只是覺得一個人而已, 你還是有可以一起分享生活點滴的對象, 但孤單可能就沒有了。
我想孤單的感覺應該是我做出回台灣決定的主要原因。最近常有感觸很深卻找不到可以分享對象的時候, 也常有想要有一個伴一起生活, 旅行, 分享的感覺。但生活總不是完美的, 不是事事都能順心的。所以我想回"家", 老實說, 我已經搞不清楚哪裡是我的家, 而家又會是怎樣的感覺。
我很清楚的知道, 這次"回家", 應該也會是短暫的。最多一兩年, 畢竟那已成為我父母親的家, 跟自己的家還是有差別的。但我知道, 父母跟家人會是永遠陪在我身旁的人, 尤其是孤單的時候。那種想打電話找人講話卻翻遍電話簿找不到一個人的感覺只有"悽涼"兩個字可以形容。
我想這樣的情形跟我在新加坡整體的狀況有關。但我就是個不喜歡自己不開心的人。我母親給我最大的影響應該就是這個觀念吧! 她總是說快快樂樂也是一天, 憂憂愁愁也是一天, 為什麼不快樂地過日子呢? 所以我總是要求我自己不開心的時候, 要不就接受現狀改變心態或是改變狀況讓自己過的更好。我想我試過改變自己的心態去接受現狀, 但我終究不能接受這個漸漸喪失鬥志及熱情的我, 所以我決定在我最美麗燦爛的時候作個完美的告別。重新開始, 開始去尋回那永遠鬥志高昂的我。
改變不一定都是好的, 但我相信嘗試是必要的。我做過一些改變的決定, 結果有好有壞, 但我另一個信念就是雖有遺憾但不後悔。所以現在的我, 決定了要過更好更充實的生活。我不知道回去後寂寞或孤單的問題會否依舊存在, 但我相信新的挑戰應該會讓我無暇思考這些東西。或許那是解決孤單最好的方法吧!
但是, 最近這幾個月發覺我不只是感到寂寞, 應該說是孤單吧! 一直在想寂寞與孤單的差別, 照字面說來, 寂寞應該是寂靜沉默而孤單是孤獨, 感覺上好像沒大分別, 但是是有分別的。寂寞的時候可能只是覺得一個人而已, 你還是有可以一起分享生活點滴的對象, 但孤單可能就沒有了。
我想孤單的感覺應該是我做出回台灣決定的主要原因。最近常有感觸很深卻找不到可以分享對象的時候, 也常有想要有一個伴一起生活, 旅行, 分享的感覺。但生活總不是完美的, 不是事事都能順心的。所以我想回"家", 老實說, 我已經搞不清楚哪裡是我的家, 而家又會是怎樣的感覺。
我很清楚的知道, 這次"回家", 應該也會是短暫的。最多一兩年, 畢竟那已成為我父母親的家, 跟自己的家還是有差別的。但我知道, 父母跟家人會是永遠陪在我身旁的人, 尤其是孤單的時候。那種想打電話找人講話卻翻遍電話簿找不到一個人的感覺只有"悽涼"兩個字可以形容。
我想這樣的情形跟我在新加坡整體的狀況有關。但我就是個不喜歡自己不開心的人。我母親給我最大的影響應該就是這個觀念吧! 她總是說快快樂樂也是一天, 憂憂愁愁也是一天, 為什麼不快樂地過日子呢? 所以我總是要求我自己不開心的時候, 要不就接受現狀改變心態或是改變狀況讓自己過的更好。我想我試過改變自己的心態去接受現狀, 但我終究不能接受這個漸漸喪失鬥志及熱情的我, 所以我決定在我最美麗燦爛的時候作個完美的告別。重新開始, 開始去尋回那永遠鬥志高昂的我。
改變不一定都是好的, 但我相信嘗試是必要的。我做過一些改變的決定, 結果有好有壞, 但我另一個信念就是雖有遺憾但不後悔。所以現在的我, 決定了要過更好更充實的生活。我不知道回去後寂寞或孤單的問題會否依舊存在, 但我相信新的挑戰應該會讓我無暇思考這些東西。或許那是解決孤單最好的方法吧!
Ah Teng's Bakery
Visited Ah Teng's Bakery at Raffles Hotel two weeks ago with Jessica as we both wanted to have brunch at some interesting place. So we had their sandwich set which cost only S$7.5 (I did take some pictures but somehow it just disappeared. Would take it again as I want to try their scone set also and show you the whole series later.). That was surprisingly cheap as we thought Raffles Hotel should be quite ex. Today, I went down to try their high tea cake set. There are so many different cakes and I chose this one which is pear and chocolate.
Wanted to explore the different aspects of Singapore as I have decided to return to Taiwan in second week of Jan. I have exactly four weeks or twenty eight days left to find out more about this city that I have spend my last five years and four months. Guess I have been taking a lot of things for granted or just didn't bother to explore too much as I thought I would just stay here.
However, now I have different attitude towards everything. Trying to list down all the places that I want to visit or things that I want to do before leaving. Only got a few on hands up to now, but I would definitely try my best to make good use of the balanced twenty eight days in Singapore.
Saturday, December 09, 2006
Shenzhen
Was visiting suppliers in Shenzhen last Wed to Fri. That was my second time visiting China for the past five years working in sourcing. Guess I have been trying to avoid visiting China unconsciously. If not, I should be there a few more times as that's the major places that my products are manufactured.
I was a bit scared before reaching Shenzhen as a few friends warned and threatened me that place especially the security part. I have heard at least three cases of murdering just within 7 days before I left for Shenzhen. I thought I should be able to survive as I have traveled around Indonesia or Vietnam. Shenzhen shouldn't be any problem, but I was still a bit worried. However, I was quite surprised that the place is not as bad as what I expect. Maybe it's because we stayed at a new area and we hired private cars to travel around the city instead of taking taxi on the road.
Guess I can't avoid visiting China from now on as I wouldbe be getting involved more in the Greater China market. I should have more chances visiting China but not sure which part of it.
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